Life moves fast.

I was covering a high school regional finals softball game Monday night. A team I was covering was looking to get back to state after winning the last two state two titles. Their pitcher is a sophomore and she was throwing a no-hitter. It was impressive. Her team was up 1-0 and she was three outs away from a no-hitter. But in the bottom of the seventh, she lost the no-hitter when the first batter hit a single. Then the next batter smacked a home run over left field fence and the game was over.

I was ready to shoot a celebration photo. But in a matter of seconds and minutes, their season was over.

I talked to her after the game and she said she threw a change-up and it was her pitch.

But life throws you fastballs, change-ups and curveballs. Life goes by fast. Life doesn’t always go as planned.

Isn’t it crazy how fast things change? Isn’t it crazy how fast time moves when you get older?

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I remember being a kid and couldn’t wait to be a grown up. Now I miss being a kid. I think sometimes as kids, we took life for granted. (Life as an adult is fun, though. I’m blessed with a loving family and friends, a job, a place to sleep and food to eat).

In the last year, I took a big jump by moving away from my hometown to take a job. It’s been difficult. But God never promised life would be easy. Life is beautiful and messy and filled with joy and heartaches.  I’m thankful for God’s grace and how he never gave up on me. I’m not going to give up.

When I was the only reporter covering seven high schools, there was long nights. I wanted to give up.  A lot. And on the cold, windy nights and on the hot, summer nights.

But I didn’t. It’s been a great experience. I’ve loved being able to capture moments and write stories about people’s lives. I’m thankful God’s given me a gift to write.  I love helping people and making people feel noticed. My hope each day is that I’ve made/will make an impact on someone’s life.

I’ve learned that working in sports is tiring. I didn’t have a day off in 39 days off through the end of May to the beginning of July. It’s not like most jobs where you go to work at eight in the morning and come home at five at night. I usually went to work at four in the afternoon and then come home around one or two in morning. When I was by myself, it was three or four in the morning some nights. It’s exhausting. It’s honestly a lonely job because then I sleep to 11 in the morning and wait to go to work. It’s hard to meet people when you work nights and weekends. For me, I’m an introvert. I like to be alone. I’m found that at times I love part of my job and other times I don’t want to work in this field. I love being able to make a difference in telling people’s stories, but it’s the long hours and the weird hours that are draining. And there isn’t much time off. I think in the 39 days straight I worked, I worked 50 to 55 hours each week. I was burnt out.

As I’ve learned about working in sports, it’s been hard to have a social life. It’s hard to take vacations and I can see why many don’t start families until their in their 30s and 40s. I’m 24. I’m single and not getting older. I’ve worried about working in sports and nights, that I won’t find a girl. I talked to a girl in the last year and we liked each other, but now we’re just friends. I think because of my job I didn’t further pursue and sometimes I wish I wouldn’t have been so consumed with work. And I think working in sports, it’s consuming work. My friends took a vacation to the lake and I didn’t go because I didn’t have enough vacation (I know with experience it takes multiple years to build up vacation). I think working a job is hard to develop and build relationships.

My parents generation taught us that we have to work and our hard work will pay off. I believe that. I’m a perfectionist and I save my money and I want to show my employers that I work hard. The baby boomers generations helped instill hard work into my generation. I’m thankful for my dad that he taught me how to work hard.

But I think, with my millennial generation and as a twenty something, we want work/life balance. As millennials, we are hard working men and women. We want to be respected and we know that it takes hard work to be promoted. It’s hard for us to realize that we have to sacrifice fun times for days at work. I feel like with my job, and with many people in sports, that balance is especially hard to find. I love working in sports, trust me. But I also feel like I’ve missed some memories with the people that love me. It’s hard to find and develop relationships.

So, it’s been an adventure living my own. I’ve learned a lot about myself. I’ve watched a lot of Netflix and sports (although, watching sports by yourself isn’t as fun). I’ve ran a lot of miles in the cold and in the heat. I’ve eaten two and half gallons of ice cream on my own (so far) this summer. I’ve become stronger in my faith because God’s always been there for me this year. I’m thankful I can I say little prayers to him. I’m thankful that my relationship with God is the strongest relationship I have. I’m thankful that can call him Daddy.  I’m thankful too when I’ve gotten lonely I can call my mom and dad. My mom and dad helped make me a hard worker and a man of faith. I’m thankful for my brother. And, I’m thankful that my friends are only a text away. My friends I gained at USF are encouraging and loving and caring. They know when to pick me up when I’m having a bad day. So thanks guys.

And I’ve been thinking about moving back home for awhile. I feel like I’ve missed making memories and building relationships since I’ve moved away.

But I don’t know what to do really. I don’t know what job I might find there? Should I go back to school and find a different job? But in all my questions, I trust God’s plan for me and I won’t ever stop trusting it. I don’t have to worry and doubt. God’s got it taken care of.

I’ve learned to have a positive outlook on life. To be truly grateful for life.

I was watching television and the ESPY’s were on tonight. They helped me to not give up and to be grateful. Lauren Hill was a basketball player who lost her life to cancer earlier this year. She was honored and so was, Leah Still, who is the daughter of NFL player, Devon Still. She is battling cancer.

Lauren lost her life, but she got her wish and played a college basketball game before she died. She started Lay-ups for Lauren to help fight cancer.

Leah is a little girl, who is five that has inspired many. I’m praying for you, Leah.

Personally, my mom is really important to me.

She showed me to never give up and how life is precious when she beat cancer when I was in elementary school. She is a hell of a fighter.

As Stuart Scott said, “So live. Fight like hell and when you get too tired to fight, lay down and rest and let someone else fight for you.”

A lot of people go through troubles. We all do. We can choose to stay positive and fight and never give up. Never, ever give up.

God has a plan for me. I KNOW THAT AND TRUST THAT AND BELIEVE THAT WITH ALL OF MY HEART.  And His plan is good and he’s still working. I’m grateful I’m healthy, I’m loved by God, my family and friends. In gift of writing God’s given me, I hope I can make others feel loved. I hope I can share the love God’s given me to the world around me because it’s important to tell the ones you love, you love them. Life moves fast.

So thanks God for saving me by amazing grace. This past year hasn’t been easy. But life is worth fighting for because you, Lord gave your life for me. This past year, you, Lord taught me to live each day and taught to me never stop loving people. To live in the moment. I hope I’ve made a difference in someone’s life and hope I make a difference in many more through stories, photographs, videos, conversations or memories I make.

This is my heart and what’s been going in my life. I just wanted to share. I love all of you and cherish our relationships. I hope I’ve made an impact on you.

 

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