It’s been a few months since I’ve blogged.
Life’s been pretty good lately, but I’ve also had some thoughts and doubts about what I want to do in my life.
Six months ago I moved back to Sioux Falls and quit my job at a newspaper and came back to work at a television station. It’s been a learning experience because I’m not doing sports anymore and just doing news mixed in a with a little sports on the weekend.
I’ve got to enjoy a lot more work/life balance with the new job and having a few daytime hours. But I miss sports and writing about them. I was watching USD play in the WNIT semifinals last night and saw one of their players, Tia Hemiller, throw a baseball-like pass that went in from half court to beat the shot clock. I miss covering those plays and the joy that comes from big games. Covering the 2015 Le Mars boys basketball team was so fun and I miss that team.
Switching to news has helped me become a lot more up to date with what’s going on in today’s world like in government and politics. Just like in sports, I’ve met a lot of people and lately, with the people I meet, I try to listen and really take in an interest in their lives. My church’s latest sermon series was about ‘Love where you are.’ I’ve been trying to love where I am at. I put a red dot on the back of my IPhone to tell me that I am here. As a Christ-follower, God wants us to be the hands and feet of Jesus. Whoever I meet, I could be the only Jesus they see. So am I living and loving like Jesus? Like for instance, I have talked about church and my faith with several co-workers. I invited a lady to the gym to Easter service. Just earlier today, I got to talking to another lady at the gym about today’s world and about God. She told me that she doesn’t have to be afraid because she has God. That was super encouraging and refreshing. It’s amazing the conversations you can have if you just listen to others.
Working in Sioux Falls has been a blessing and it’s been hard. I get to meet a ton of new people and work with a ton of awesome people. Having a job in journalism is like having a big family because we’re around each other a lot and work long hours together. With this job, like I said earlier, I’ve got to have some daytime hours and it’s allowed me to spend more time with my family and friends. It’s allowed me to get involved at church by serving and by going to a life group. It’s allowed me to go to the gym and get stronger physically. God’s so good.
Sometimes though, I still struggle and feel like I gave up my dream of sports writing. I only gave it a year. I feel like I didn’t get everything accomplished I wanted to back in Le Mars. I also have fears that while I am trying to figure out what I want to do with a job, I won’t meet a girl because I’m purring my professional life ahead of my personal life.
But I’m only 25 and am still young. With that, I was listening to ESPN Radio and two of my favorites, Ryen Russillo and Danny Kanell. Someone asked Russillo if you don’t end up getting married, have you ever thought you won’t have that moment in your life? I think Russillo said he was 40. So obviously, he’s a lot older than me. But what he went on to say made me think and is true about what I think. Russillo said in what he messed up because he hasn’t peaked yet professionally and has wanted to accomplish other stuff. He said he’s become obsessed with his professional life and put off his personal life. As a journalist, I think that happens a lot. For me, I see a lot of my friends getting married and having kids and being in relationships. I’m still trying to figure out what I want to do in my life and what I want to do. I’ve had jobs at television stations, a radio station and a newspaper. I think I want to write again, though. (I’m going to try to blog more)
I’m still young and have a lot of life to live. So I have time to meet a girl. But what Russillo said just made me think and especially how he ended that segment. Russillo said a buddy said to him, ‘what are you going to do?’ Russillo said he’s fine and if he can get these things done, then he will be good and will done with the rest of it. His buddy said, ‘you know what I did, I wanted to share all that stuff with somebody.’
Like woah. That hit me. Yeah, I want to try and figure out what I am good at and what I want to do. But like I still want to spend my life with someone else that I can share my passion with and do life together with. I trust God has an awesome sister in Christ out there for me. So, I don’t know. But I do this. I trust God. God has a plan and it’s wicked awesome. LIfe takes trust, faith and you have to wait patiently sometimes. God’s not done with me yet and I’m just going to keep giving all of me to Him and trusting Him because He’s so good. Help me Lord, to love where I am at.
All I am is Yours, Lord. You’re a good, good Father, Lord. You love me and I love you, Lord.