Wait or settle?

Should I be settling down or waiting?

I’m a journalist.

I’m in sports and work nights, usually from 4 p.m. to midnight. Sometimes like last night until 2:30 a.m.

I think it’s an odd job.

But I love sports and make sacrifices as a result.

Working nights is tough. But it’s the job I’ve chosen. In my field of journalism, there’s a lot of turnover each year. I talked to a coach and he wished a reporter would stick around.

Unfortunately that’s the way it is. It’s a field where you have to start at bottom to get experience. In order to get experience, you start at a small newspaper, television or radio station. Then a year rolls around and they leave.

So I think in the last two years I’ve been out of college and in media field, I’ve seen journalists put their career ahead of the rest of their lives. They wait to get married and start a family.

I see others on my Facebook getting married. I’m happy for you, trust me.

But then I wonder what I’m doing with my life. I’m 24, and single. Should I be pursuing a family over my job?

My grandma, and know she was having fun, said how are you suppose to find a girl when you work nights?

I don’t know, grandma.

I do know, though, I am trusting God with his plan because he forgave me for my past, is with me today and knows what my future holds.

I enjoy my job, even though it’s stressful. I have to cover seven high schools by myself for a newspaper. Writing, taking photos and designing pages. It’s great experience. It’s hard. It’s teaching me time management. What I love most about journalism is the ability to tell stories and listen. I enjoy capturing moments for others to cherish and remember.

So while I want to get married someday, and have kids. I’m okay with waiting.

Habakkuk 2:3 says: (ASV) ‘For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie.
If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay.’ 

The Message struck me, too. The heading read, ‘Full of self, but soul-empty.’

Verses 2 and 3: ‘And then God answered: “Write this. Write what you see. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run. This vision-message is a witness pointing to what’s coming. It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait! And it doesn’t lie! If it seems slow in coming, wait. It’s on its way. It will come right on time.’ 

Sometimes I think I’m guilty of being selfish and trying to find what makes soul happy. We want to be successful. We forget. I forget. We sometimes let busyness of our lives forget God gave up himself for me and you. He said in Ephesians 5 to be imitators of him. To live a life of love just as Christ loved us and gave himself up as a sacrifice to God. Jesus is all our souls need.

I read further in Ephesians 5 and came to verse 14: ‘Wake up O Sleeper, rise from dead and Christ will shine on you.’

Daily I need to wake up and realize, it’s not my life, but his and he has a greater plan.

So how can I apply this to waiting? Well, I would like a wife or family. But I am okay with waiting for God’s timing. I am as a journalist and starting at a newspaper in a small town. I know God is with me. He has a vision. It may be slow in coming, but I know his plan is coming and it will come at right time.

It was hard moving away from Sioux Falls. It gets lonely. I miss my friends and family every day. (You guys know who you are).

I’ve wanted to quit and move back and live bachelor life with my bros.

But I think it was a step for God to tell me to trust him. It was a getting out of the boat experience. He’s teaching me to walk on water with him because I know every step I take, he’s right behind. He’s teaching me to know he’s in first place in my life.

I am eager each day to see what God has in store. I’m finding every day in my soul who God is forming me to be.

My soul is well. It is well with Jesus. All I am is his.

Young adult athlete sitting in bleachers